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Family and career are my MAIN focus

2010-11-06T01:14:00.003+08:00

“在感情和友情之间，我会选择什么？”

这几天，很忙碌。。所以我决定了让自己放松一下。。我不想再去管那些不愉快的事情。。结局如何不是我能控制的。。我知道因为这件事，让你对我失去了信任。。但我知道一切都过去了。。因为我看了你的博客。。不管结果会是如何，但我知道我们依然是朋友。。但我现在需要的是时间。。

除了说明这件事情以外，我还要感谢一个人。。
I think I should use English to write this..
I'm really appreciated on what you have done to me.. I'm touched by your concern and care..
You told me not to bother/worry too much about my friendship and 'guide' me on what i should do.. That time you wrote for me a long reply on MSN and on the reply, i know that you feel unfair and worry for me... I've never seen such a long reply before.. After that matter, you still worried whether i'm still bother about it or not..
Not only that everytime i feel busy, you will text me and ask me to take care of myself and remind me to have my dinner.. and all this and that.. Please dont worry for me anymore..
* I need to focus on my career and family.. Other than that, I would say it's not a right time..

S-O-R-R-Y

2010-11-01T22:23:00.006+08:00

I know wad i say now is useless to you.. cos like wad you said on your blog.. the trust is not there anymore.. I do know you feel so hurt and sad after seeing those pics.. i do not wish to hurt anyone of them out here.. i think other than writing here, nothing i can do now.. after sending the email to everyone, you called me and told me that it's okay to attend his birthday even i never attend yours.. I bought your present in advance cos i already know that i cannot make it on that day.. even jarryl birthday i din even have the time to buy.. I did try my best to please everyone but that's not easy for me.. I read your blog and fb status.. i know how you feel but do you know how i feel after reading your blog? do you know how many ppl are trying to console me after i posted my status on fb?? I feel so guilty and bad that i hurt you.. I cried after reading your blog.. i do feel hurt.. believe or not? is not depend on me.. sorry! now i do not wish to ask for your forgiveness but just to understand me.. i cherish! I do know you always be there for me like the law case..once a person helped me, i will rmb for my lifetime.. so i really wan to say a BIG sorry to you!

Express LOVE!

2010-10-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

Finally got the time to have a simple dinner with family later on..
Not becos i'm busy working until no time for them, however they are also busy with their own stuffs..

Last few days, Huiying text-ed me and asked me out.. so random of her! but i managed to go out with her tgt with Cassan.. Such a long time nv see her le..

Hmm.. working doesnt means i will lose my frens or lack of commuication with family.. it's just that how you going to manage it.. but one impt thing is i wont forget anyone of you out there.. and the love toward my family is nv ending..

Furthermore, I have no time to think of any relationship and those small matter anymore.. those are unneccessary/childish stuffs to me... but pls know that you're still that impt to me.. As i told you before, i wont give up on you that easily.. unless you are the one who give up first.

I met alot of "them" but you are the one i love.. no matter wad they say or wad i do to them, you are the only one i cherish most.

As for my family, dont nid to say anymore.. they are my life! i'm not only live for myself and on the same time, i live for them..

That's simple LOVE!!
I LOVE YOU ALL <3

关怀方式

2010-10-04T00:11:00.005+08:00

因为工作我忽略不少事情和有些人的存在。。
为了赚更多的钱，我仿佛累坏了自己。。不想让家人知道，不至是家人连朋友我都不想说。。因为我知道他们也很忙。。每当我放工回到家，妈妈终会问我：今天累吗？？有时候，我连精力都没有。。只好说：还好。。记得有一天，我因为工作所以一点才到家，所有的人都已经睡了除了我弟弟还在厅里等我回来。。而他隔天他还有考试。。他跟我说的第一句话是：你今天做工到那么晚，累吗？？那时的心情，很感动。。再多的辛苦都是值得的。。
因为忙碌，我和家人碰面的时间愈来愈少。。家人的关心，我感受到。。因为这样，我希望我能给于他们“最好”的一切。。有时候，因为疲惫，心情有点暴躁。。语气不好。。对不起，妈妈！那时，我不应该对你大声。。我知道你是关心我的。。
放心！我会照顾好自己的。。如果太累，我会放慢脚步。。好让自己休息一下。。
如果，我做到很晚，我一定会喝多一点白开水的。。 (*although i dont like it but it's an order from my mum and bro, so no choice have to obey it) ^^

我不会忘了你们的约会。。
P/S：我更不会忘了我对你们的承诺。。

Cherish Vs Give up

2010-09-14T00:53:00.003+08:00

13th Sept 2010

现在的感触很多。。今天我外婆跟我说了很多关于“我父亲”的事，令我感到生气和难过。。我看见妈妈的眼泪。。心很痛！我心想一切就这样过去吧。。但我知道妈妈始终放不下这段感情。。我现在想做的事就是孝顺妈妈和爱护兄弟姐妹。。

I "always" wish to give my family the best.. but is that enough?? I really dont know.. After "my father" matter, i told myself that i have to work very hard to earn more money in order to maintain this family well.. wad this family wants is just a simple happiness..

Why CHAN relatives kip on giving us trouble?? Can't they just stop it?? and let it over??

I can be a joker at home cos i choose to have a happy and joyful family.. so i dont mind.. If i feel sad, i choose to hide it from my family cos i know i will make them worried for me.. That's why last time zikuan always told me that if gt any problems or unhappiness, feel free to tell her.. But if really encounter BIG problem, i will definitely tell them cos i know they will confirm help mi out..FAMILY is always my best supporter!!

I know let go of a person is not easy.. but no pt to kip back a person who dont know how to cherish you.. it's TOTALLY USELESS..

From today onwards, i wont give up on anyone..include YOU!

2010-07-30T14:39:00.001+08:00

HIGH PARTY!!

A brand new mth!! July!!

2010-07-01T14:50:00.006+08:00

1st july 2010

Look for a suitable job - save money every mth (20% of my salary)
Go holiday - anywhere also can
Buy a new hp and laptop

Before my 22nd bdae, i hope it can come true.. Still gt 9 more mths to go..

杀杀杀!!! Nothing is impossible!!

So fast! Now alrdy 1st july.. which means another few more mths, we are going to welcome a brand new year to arrive..
Alot of my frens bdae is on this mth.. my pocket is going to BURST le..

Jia you!!! Gambetta!!

I love Sunday!

2010-06-13T10:18:00.005+08:00

I'm quite busy for these few days.. *world tour
How come i always busy when my siblings are having holiday?? How to spend time with them?? Sian diao!! That's why weekend is my precious time with them.. Sometime, weekend(sat) for me is also busy de lor.. i think i must rescheduling my plan..
Family vs $$.. Family wins for sure!

As for this weekend, chan siblings hav to help mummy tidy up house.. cos my sister wanna to buy a two seater sofa for mum next week and somemore, mum just bought a cupboard ytd.. So have to tidy up if not no place to walk la..
Hmm... still have anything to update.. I dont think so bah..

I still owe my cousin, Zhengda birthday present.. I must write this if not, he tot i forget liao.. No worries boy.... ^^

1st day of June

2010-06-01T23:46:00.005+08:00

Today is 1st of june.. a brand new mth begins..
A few days ago, i kip on spending time with family and frens(abit lah).. went to helix bridge with family on sun and also marina bay sands casino(standing outside and peek a boo).. i realised that quite alot of ppl are queuing up to go in..some singaporeans said they hav no $.. pls lah.. all bullshit.. but hor, sometime i really feel that some rich ppl are super hao lian.. like you talk to them, they act like you owe them sth sia.. damn rude and make mi feel so pek chek..
it's okay.. more imptly, i wont let them affect my wonderful and cheerful mood.. cos to me, they are siao lang!!!

*You maybe very rich but pls.. show some respect to others.. cos they do not owe you anything..

I just simply love the way i live now..

为你写首歌。。

2010-05-24T12:01:00.005+08:00

Last sat, i went to see show luo (wu fa wu tian) concert with my mum and her frens.. the concert damn shiok, high and cool bi le.. i screamed until my neighbour can't take it.. kip on closing her right ear.. cos i'm sitting on her right side.. crazy girl!! she rather spent her money to close her ear than enjoy show luo wonderful voice..
but hor!! i dont care de lor.. i just wan to get myself high like hell..
I still rmb show luo sang a song title (wei ni xie shou ge) while he was playing the piano.. that song really so touched.. meaningful lyrics...

但如果没你的掌声
赢了又如何

I like this part very much..
I hope every of my achievement gt your applause.. 你的掌声对我来说是一种肯定..

Now i need to do is to focus on my family and career.. but you still under my care..

Graduation Ceremony

2010-05-10T20:05:00.004+08:00

Next Mon = 17th may 2010..
That day will be my graduation ceremony..
Time really flies.. i still remember last time becos of my english, that's why i have to apply for the DAE..
CHAN FAMILY and LEE PIN.. Thanks for all your help on DAE application.. Although this course is not my choice.. but i managed to complete and graduate from this course on time although i failed one stupid module..

Throughout this journey is not that easy but i believe with you all de help/support, nothing is impossible...Thanks for being there for me all the time... I LOVE you all..

Zikuan's Post
Thanks zk!

Steamboat for Mother's day

2010-05-08T14:21:00.004+08:00

Tmr is mother's day..
This morning, my boss msg-ed me... She wanted me to work tmr @ amk.. In the end, i rejected.. cos i alrdy promised my family to celebrate mother's day tgt..
Steamboat @ hm!!
These few days, my two little siblings are having their MYE.. and adults are working..
So it will be a good time to hav a wonderful gathering/celebration..